Your cairn is beautiful! Very "I'm a writer, not a Neolithic period person."
You are so right though, about TELLING the story. We do often forget to place importance on that. What with the character arcs and structure, like you said.
This was a very nice reminder. And I love the way you write. Hope you didn't get any glue in awkward places
Thank you for your kind words, very much appreciated on the day when 8 months after being told I have a load of letters I can stick after my name, not letters you would want to have stuck after your name, somebody has finally explained what that means. It sort of takes the wind right out of your sails to read this stuff, so thank you.
8 years ago, living the dream like you would not believe, I met somebody from my past in a shop, and my life fell apart. Simple as that. In less than 10 seconds, rug from under feet, stuff that had been buried for 40 years or more came out of nowhere. I did what everybody does, I ignored it, which was not a good plan. Think of a slippery slope that just got more slippery by the day until it went spectacularly bang.
Last summer I was finally assessed, a digging process that left me unable to work for months, told I had a thing called CPTSD, but I had no idea what that meant, and I am not inclined to ask such things of Dr Google.
I have been having my head examined since January, the idea being that I get some sort of action plan formulated, and today I was sent a summary of what those letters actually mean. So many things I thought were just me, and it turns out it isn’t just me, this is what happens to people. It is just pretty brutal seeing it written down that’s all. Worst of all is reading why these things happen, that it is basically brain damage, and won’t ever be fixed. That fucking hurts.
So yeah, not a good day, and your positive vibes came at good time because I had been putting off reading the bloody thing all afternoon and had just finished reading the first few pages. The rest of the pages can fuck off.
Sorry, didn’t mean to be a drama queen. Not usually my style. I am much happier talking about farts or drunk parrots.
Oh, Nigel. Yes, seeing a painful past spelt out right in front of us will make anyone's head spin.
I think it's great that you're doing the work now though! Don't feel ashamed though, yes?
Its really jarring when we realize who we thought we were, is actually because of fucked up shit that happened to us. The anger, and resentment, and confusion, its tough to deal with. The good news is, you're one of us now 😂 But, I'm hoping it's nothing too hurtful or damaging that you can't come out the other side.
It feels pretty grim at the moment, but maybe that’s just me being a drama queen again. I am assured that people do get over such stuff, and you seem to be evidence that a sense of humour survives a good kicking, so I intend to rip the piss out of people for a long time yet.
I suspect creative people are pretty rubbish at taking time out, because we view what we are doing as time out, but of course, it isn’t. Not when we do it every day.
I definitely think that part of why I get in writers block, is if time goes by… I feel like I forgot all the “rules” and that suddenly I’m a terrible writer because I can’t remember them all!
Side note: first time I saw my spirit guides, was in a sound bath. One of them was twirling with a white veil, dancing. Then another was sitting by a pond smiling .. when I went to research the one on the pond… turns out she was a goddess of creativity and of writers!
I can imagine a sound bath being the perfect environment to connect with whatever is around you at the time. It is even more restful than meditation if you end up with an absence of conscious thought. Thanks for sharing this with me.
I love the word cairn, that's a cool idea. I can see where it might inspire a story idea or ten.
Your cairn is beautiful! Very "I'm a writer, not a Neolithic period person."
You are so right though, about TELLING the story. We do often forget to place importance on that. What with the character arcs and structure, like you said.
This was a very nice reminder. And I love the way you write. Hope you didn't get any glue in awkward places
Thank you for your kind words, very much appreciated on the day when 8 months after being told I have a load of letters I can stick after my name, not letters you would want to have stuck after your name, somebody has finally explained what that means. It sort of takes the wind right out of your sails to read this stuff, so thank you.
Oh no! What happened Nige?
8 years ago, living the dream like you would not believe, I met somebody from my past in a shop, and my life fell apart. Simple as that. In less than 10 seconds, rug from under feet, stuff that had been buried for 40 years or more came out of nowhere. I did what everybody does, I ignored it, which was not a good plan. Think of a slippery slope that just got more slippery by the day until it went spectacularly bang.
Last summer I was finally assessed, a digging process that left me unable to work for months, told I had a thing called CPTSD, but I had no idea what that meant, and I am not inclined to ask such things of Dr Google.
I have been having my head examined since January, the idea being that I get some sort of action plan formulated, and today I was sent a summary of what those letters actually mean. So many things I thought were just me, and it turns out it isn’t just me, this is what happens to people. It is just pretty brutal seeing it written down that’s all. Worst of all is reading why these things happen, that it is basically brain damage, and won’t ever be fixed. That fucking hurts.
So yeah, not a good day, and your positive vibes came at good time because I had been putting off reading the bloody thing all afternoon and had just finished reading the first few pages. The rest of the pages can fuck off.
Sorry, didn’t mean to be a drama queen. Not usually my style. I am much happier talking about farts or drunk parrots.
Oh, Nigel. Yes, seeing a painful past spelt out right in front of us will make anyone's head spin.
I think it's great that you're doing the work now though! Don't feel ashamed though, yes?
Its really jarring when we realize who we thought we were, is actually because of fucked up shit that happened to us. The anger, and resentment, and confusion, its tough to deal with. The good news is, you're one of us now 😂 But, I'm hoping it's nothing too hurtful or damaging that you can't come out the other side.
Nice to know I am in good company thanks.
It feels pretty grim at the moment, but maybe that’s just me being a drama queen again. I am assured that people do get over such stuff, and you seem to be evidence that a sense of humour survives a good kicking, so I intend to rip the piss out of people for a long time yet.
Keep your head up Nige!
Time out is a building block. Without it we stagnate. Love your paper cairn idea. 😊
I suspect creative people are pretty rubbish at taking time out, because we view what we are doing as time out, but of course, it isn’t. Not when we do it every day.
I definitely think that part of why I get in writers block, is if time goes by… I feel like I forgot all the “rules” and that suddenly I’m a terrible writer because I can’t remember them all!
Side note: first time I saw my spirit guides, was in a sound bath. One of them was twirling with a white veil, dancing. Then another was sitting by a pond smiling .. when I went to research the one on the pond… turns out she was a goddess of creativity and of writers!
I can imagine a sound bath being the perfect environment to connect with whatever is around you at the time. It is even more restful than meditation if you end up with an absence of conscious thought. Thanks for sharing this with me.